Barely a week goes by without Tony Maniaty thinking about Balibo.
Maniaty, an up-and-coming ABC journalist, travelled with a film crew to the East Timorese border town in October 1975, just as the Portuguese colony was about to be overrun by Indonesia.
Shelled and shot upon by Indonesian forces, the ABC team retreated with the pro-independence Fretilin group towards the capital of Dili.
In the opposite direction sped a Channel Seven news crew of Australians Greg Shackleton and Tony Stewart and New Zealander Gary Cunningham, looking for the big story. They were followed some days later by Channel Nine journalists and Britons Malcolm Rennie and Brian Peters.
Crossing paths, Maniaty unsuccessfully warned both crews to turn back.
It was the last he saw of them.
Friday, 16 October marks the 40th anniversary of the deaths of the 'Balibo Five', who were shot by Indonesian military forces as they reported on the East Timorese bloodshed.
Indonesia maintains the Five were killed in crossfire, despite a 2007 NSW Coroner's Inquest finding the journalists were murdered by Indonesian forces in what constituted a war crime.
Maniaty stayed to report on the deaths from Dili. It was the most harrowing period of his life.
"The longer I stayed, the more likely I too would be killed. We assumed the clock was ticking," the 66-year-old told AAP.
"It was a very dangerous game, to stay as long as you could to report on the suffering and conflict in East Timor but also to stay alive.
"In many ways it remains the defining event of my adult life."
Maniaty returned to Balibo in 2008 as a consultant for the film 'Balibo' about the investigation into the murders by Australian journalist Roger East, working for AAP, and East's ultimate death in Dili at the hands of the Indonesian military on December 8, 1975.
The film, starring Australian actor Anthony LaPaglia, will be shown in various locations across Australia and East Timor on Friday with proceeds to go towards building a Balibo dental clinic.
Film director Robert Connolly, 47, was the man tasked with re-telling the Balibo history to a modern audience and didn't take his role lightly.
"We tried to be as forensic as possible about their murder for history's sake. You definitely feel that responsibility to get these things right," Connolly said.
"We did know it would become for a lot of people a historical document.
"I think it managed to put a lot of things on the record in a way that was quite commercially available."
Connolly said the deaths ultimately helped maintain interest in the East Timorese story on Australian shores.
"The clearest observation I have of the murders was that it kept the story of East Timor alive in Australian consciousness, for those many years when terrible things were happening," he said.
"This was a very small place. At the time there were only 400,000 people in East Timor," Maniaty said.
"To be blunt about it, the deaths of Australian journalists brought media focus onto that story in a way that perhaps wouldn't have been so intense, and that of course had its outcome in the eventual independence of the East Timorese."
Photo and caption added by ETLJB. This is the Indonesian man, Muhammad Yunus Yosfiah, who is accused of primary responsibility for the extra-judicial killings and mutilation of the Balibo 5. Indonesia, true to form, has denied this and asserts that the Balibo 5 were killed in cross-fire. It is a lie; among an ocean of lies from the Indonesian State about the multitude of atrocities it committed in East Timor. See here for an interview with him.